I’ve been thinking about this for quite a while now. How I would phrase this, if I would phrase anything at all. If there was any point to it or it was just to clear my own head. I can’t seem to fully make up my mind.

I’m having major problems wrapping the situation around my head. I can’t seem to find the logic and as such I’m feeling rather lost about the whole thing. I still can’t believe this happened in our country. Our quiet little country. The overal impression seems to be that no one is overly surprised some crackpot went pop in his head and decided to kill a bunch of people, these things happen from time to time. It’s the part where it happened they can’t for the life of them understand, and neither can I.

We have never ever been attacked like this. Not even during WW2. Sure, the nazis came and took over, but it happened rather quietly and with restricted loss of life. We’ve never had bombs flying off in the middle of our capital and we’ve never had someone chase us around with a gun shooting everyone he could find to point at. These were some of the things we never expected to see in our country, because as far as terrorism and psychopaths were concerned we were Snoozeville.

Before anyone had taken any responsibility, before anyone fully understood what had happened and before anyone knew there was a shooter running crazy at the youth camp the speculations were of course pending towards the muslim extremist community. We still had problems understanding exactly what this extremist community all of a sudden would have against us seeing as we hadn’t made any aggressive moves towards… anyone really. Words flew how it “had to be them” and how we would stand united against this enemy. Supportgroups on multiple online meetingplaces like myspace and facebook began to spawn how we would be united against this common enemy, but still somehow fight against hate and racism. Even other countries started to openly offer help against this terrorist cell we’d clearly been a victim of. Random people on facebook uttered their meaningless tales of “Told you it was gonna happen, just a matter of time before they attacked us and they did!”

Then the news came. The man responsible was a white Norwegian man, Conservative Christian.

Oh how quickly people forgot their previous statements and decided to rant on about how we don’t have death penalty and how he’d only have to serve 21 year (maximum prison sentence in norway). They’re forgetting a crafty detail though. The charges he was brought up upon gives the jury the ability to sentence him to 21 years PLUS custody until “it is considered safe for the public to release him”. I imagine that’s gonna be when he leaves in a box. Whether it being a result of old age, suicide or “interaction with inmates” remains to be seen.

I see friends rant and fume on facebook. I understand their anger, but I don’t feel any myself. I want the logic. I want the explanation. I want some sense made of it so I can process what has happened and move on. Something tells me I’ll never fully get the explanation I ask for. The logic that I need.

I’m not entirely sure what’s going to happen after this.